Finally on day 6 of NICU, the doctor finally said that he was doing well enough and eating enough to take the umbilical IV out. I was going to finally be able to hold my baby! Several hours later once he had the IV out and they decided he was stable enough, I cried as [...]

At the same time, the pediatric nurses called in the pediatrician and decided that Tre needed to go to the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU) as he wasn’t absorbing enough oxygen. I was terrified and torn. I wanted Italian Stallion to stay with me, but told him to go with Tre and make sure he [...]

In the exam room, they explained to me more of what would happen and prepped me for a spinal. They had a resident student give me the spinal and it took him several tries. I has having contractions and leaning forward for 15 minutes while he repeatedly poked my back was not fun at all. [...]

Even for my untrained eyes, it was very obvious that the placenta was covering the birth canal. I sobbed as I realized any hope for natural birth was gone and that I was going to have surgery. I was filled with concern for little Tre who would have to be born so early. I just [...]